have you ever felt so helpless?
like there's nothing you can do..

yesterday was suppose to be a good day, birthday celebration at home for my dad.
caught the F1 on TV, alonso got 3rd.!
then before everything else started, jordan felt faint and started have fits..
and all this stupid sister of his could do, was stand there stunned.
I was so scared.. it's totally firsthand drama. not in a good way. ambulance came and phew..
then i freaking failed my violin AGAIN.! i thought i could pass and focus on my school exams.. but.. crap la.. plus the EOY stress.. this is a huge setback for me..
i'm really really scared. and stressed. never like this before.

i just wish that life could restart and i'll make better decisions.
but on the other hand.. if we dont fail, we wont experience the happiness success would bring..
such dilemma..

i dont want to do this anymore..
i wish time would just..
stop.

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