Why must it end so fast?
‘4th month of the bloody year’ only.
I’m so tired.
I should’ve trained harder, trained smarter.. if only I had..
If.. If.. If.. time cannot be rewind so we just have to look ahead.
You guys were seriously the monkeys that made me look forward to trainings.
You guys were the motivation for me to carry on.
You guys were there for me when I lost hope, when I broke down.
Now, without your, where will I find my pillar of strength? My motivation?
Training wont be the same ever again..
NO: lingying and her ‘charis~’
Fara shazreen and her theories
Xinni and her doubles
Dionne and her butt smacks
Chinyee and her pinches(?) and cold jokes
Amanda and her laughter
Guihua and her winks and high-ness
I’ll really really miss you guys (this is where the waterworks start)
We were wondering what will we do during our first training..
I think I will look for fara.. my senior setter that always paoqiu with me.. then realize that she’s not around.. then I’ll start emo-ing but act.. then when training is over.. I’ll break..
I hope I don’t.. but.. I’m not that emotionally strong..
We have to ping! All the way. Set targets now.. and work hard! No slacking..
Get it back.. (I want revenge!)
A*****e: seriously.. I think what I commented was right.. I find no fault in that.. I don’t disagree with what you sacrificed for us but,, .. think about it, I’ve never heard encouraging words from you.. all I hear is ‘I want go home’ or ‘da hao lai leh’. We’re humans too.. we have feelings.. and since you know we’re not that mentally strong, do you still have to suan us like that? We just lost this crucial match.. yet you treat us like losers, (ya we lost.. so?) our last match. Our last time being a team.. I know I shouldn’t have said you like that.. since you are afterall an authority figure.. but you don’t show us the due respect yet you want us to respect you? Wth! No way.. I can frankly tell you that I don’t have respect for you no more.. you lost it yourself. Spare a thought for us, we’re students, we’re girls, we’re mentally weak.. yet you still add salt to the wound.. cant you just SHUT UP?! Some of them actually said I commented correctly, I scolded well.. so I don’t feel bad scolding you, I feel bad that I made you lose face.. afterall, you’re an adult..
If you have nothing nice to say, just keep your damn mouth SHUT! Just go away.. I’m happy you’re not the TIC. (^don’t ask me who or what happened, or I’ll be pissed again)
So.. cheer up guys.. I’ve said what I wanted to say..
I’ve trashed it out..
Like vlee said, ‘you should be happy, you’ve reached your target’
Ya, nationaltop4. not bad already.. think about it.. we were so close to losing in top8.. to be in top4 was a miracle.. so, it’s okay.. cheer up, we’ve reached our set target.. now, it’s up to the next batch of Bgirls to set the standard even higher.. jiayou, let’s do this together! Seniors, you’ll always be in my heart.. never ever will be forgotten.. you’ve planted the love to deep.. I’ll miss you guys! (waterworks still in progress)
I think I have to cry myself to sleep tonight..
1st: state of depression
2nd: state of denial
3rd: state of rejection
4th: state of acceptance
5th: state of recovery.
I’m currently stuck at stage1.. ( waterworks still unable to stop)
Let my batch have a great year ahead! Jiayou! Cheer up and remember your smile is what brightens the day for someone..
