Maybe I'm just wrong.
Everyone was giving in to me yet..
I didnt realise and took advantage of it.

And it was me hurting people
not others
How irresponsible am i?
How stupid can i be?

This time i have to pay.
This time i really have to accept the punishment given.

Why am i so blind?
Why cant i express my thoughts properly?
Why am so 'closed'?

I guess,
I'll forever me closed.

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now why is everything about me?
Let have a change..

guys (girls), since your have a new setter,
let her have a chance.
Dont treat her bad. She's not me so your have to get used to it!
Then because she doesnt have A.P. your should be happier with her.
Have fun ya?

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Thanks for everything.
I guess i wont have the motivation to fight for the position at the moment.
Thanks for everything ya?
I try again.. soon.
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I'm sorry for everything.
I didnt know what came over me.
I was never forced to do something that i didnt want ever.
Maybe because of that.
I'm really sorry.
Thanks for all the time you've put into coaching me.
And i'm sorry, I've just wasted it.
I'm a useless talent. I dont even have talents in the first place.
I'm really dumb to treat you like that.
I really have A.P.
It's the right thing to take me out.
To have a breather. To rest. To find back motivations.
What i want to say 'I'm SORRY.'

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