When was i ever given the choice of not being a setter? I doubt ever!!
Okie la.. The things your said today really quite true.. I'll take it into full consideration!
I think i've lost ALL motivations for EVERYTHING! i dont want to study, i dont want to practice my instruments, i dont want to go for CCA. I just want to slack! I'm a useless slacker! I cannot do anything well..
Truthfully speaking,, I am confident of myself (opps..) but even if i give a 'pass' ball, what do i get? Not more than people congratulating the spiker or not more than someone saying 'hao qiu'..
someone said something that makes alot of sense to me.. she said 'most colours awards go to spikers not to other players.. if there's no nice ball from the libero and no proper set from the setter.. would there be a spike?' I'm not aiming the spiker but awards should be FAIR!
I am super angry with myself.. what kind of Christian have i become? swearing in God's name? Having doubts? daily time? no time with God? I stink at everything.
When can i go back to the way i was in sec1 in March? I think i was loving sec1 before we all started stressing about getting in zonal top4.. Yes, it is important but to lose friends in the progress? Is it worth it? I rather not have the top4 than to not be friends with you all.. Remember the times where we did good and had fun in training at the same time? I WANT THAT! I MISS THAT! where did it all go?!? can it come back? time cannot be rewinded but the future is in our hands. Our fate is not to lose in vain but win in victory!
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I failed maths and physics.. I have serious moodswings! No1 best moodswinger in the world universe,, i think even better than our dear Miss Kang. I've seldom failed exams!
12/3 is my worst and best day ever! I've have to concentrate fully on that day so please no one is to msg me, call me, email me, or make any contact with me on that miserable day! If i fail this exam,, I.. I.. I'm dead! I'll really die.. your will never see me happy ever again if i fail.. but if i pass,, i'll treat you all to drinks!
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To all:
Sorry but i have to settle my own problems before returning back to me again.. i've really change a lot dont you think so? I think i have, and i dont want to! Just think that there are other people out there worst off then me! I think the title for this should me ' To me:' i'm like so emotional now.. shoot! stop crying girl! save your tears for other things... SMILE!!
last of all,,
THANK YOU! and SORRY! appreciate it alot for your presence.. crapper..123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123123
