Today's the last day of 2007.
And i still have maths to do...
Let's have a conversation with myself... I know it's lame but i have no one at home at the moment to talk to...
LV(little voice): Charis why you so last minute? Why didn't you do it earlier?
Me: There are 3 types of students 1) those who work then play. 2) those play then work. 3) Work,play, work, play.. Look's like i'm in the 3rd group...
LV: but you know you've done it like way back in the holidays...
Me: yar.. but seriously i did.. most of it... I'm only left with maths... It's really not that nice to do... Trust me, i cannot do more than 1 hr of it...
LV: You have to try... come on... you're going to be sec2 soon... in a matter of hours.. and you're still not putting in effort?
Me: Like i don't want to... you think it's easy being me? you try.. you're not the one going for piano lessons, for violin lessons, for volleyball and choir practises... still having to practise the instruments for hours at times.. still having to go to church and for PTL practises... and having to do QT. You're not the one doing the thinking for my homework, not the one getting all tired and stuff... you think it's easy? as you said i'm still in sec1 not in sec2 yet! and i have all this to tolerate... and the pushing of everyone.. parents;teachers;coach;friends;seniors... you seriously think it's easy?
LV: I know it's not but you have to make time... QT is a must.. you cannot treat it as a chore.. it's a way to get closer to God..
Me: I know that's why i'm doing it right?
LV: Fine... btw i'm only a fragment of your imagination.. you're still talking to yourself.. don't get angry at me cause it means getting angry at yourself..
Okie for those who are really seriously reading this.. Don't worry i'm not bonkers yet.. I hope.. XP I'm still at home typing this.. so i think i'm not...
Now for my thoughts about this year...
well, I've made very good friends, met alot of nice,cool seniors..
experienced loads of stress..
experienced God's presence..
Felt holy-ier, felt like an irritant, felt ordinary...
became a sort-of counsellor(not those in school).. became the vice-cap in volleyball (which i stink at)... had attitude problems... mood swings...
But all this will change? next year? I hope so..
I want to be good next year.. to excel in everything.. it's everybody's dream but I will TRY to make it happen to/on me...
you won't know until you try...
Lord i really need your help to do this...
I also want to conquer my fear of falling down.. ouch...
to try tolerating pain... ouch...
OUCH!!
I hate pain.. it's my worst enemy..
my second worst is death...
I know it's not that scary when your going to heaven...
but other ppl dying.. it's sad.. real sad..
I've just lost my topic..
opinions.. topics.. insults.. gossips.. anything...
Throw it at me.. I think i'm able handle... Go for it...
will 2008 be a good year for me? I REALLY HOPE IT IS..
